anger into silence

I know I should not be silent.  They say silent is complacent.  It means I agree with what’s going on. I do not. Not in any way. I am so enraged by the fake president and his fake band of news nazis (like Bannon, even tho he’s gone).  They are like the new age Hitler and I know every one keeps invoked Hitler and it’s passe and people run their eyes ordinarily but i just had to say it.  When they comb thru the records and are like “WTF were they thinking?!” at least they’ll find some of us that didn’t have our thumbs up our butts.

What a clan of losing sacks of skin, this new band that has  overrun pennsylvannia avenue, like a virus, virulent.  Virulent and pestering gin hate, and the muted footsteps of the lynch mob haunts their dreams.  Reincarnated stage magic, making us watch a new mob with torches and billowing robes, distracted while they rape our nation and strip conscious attention and stuff ram our mouths with prozac and we laugh and laugh and carry more bags, diffused with stacks of cash that encase every single nerve in our bodies.  We pay no attention to what is going on and our organs coaelese into one great blithering glob of insane babbling and bubbling and melting and sneezing into each other inside our skin and outside our skin and no one knows their head from their feet.

All our insides don’t exist.  I only know one real person, my mom.  And sometimes she sucks.  Whatever, I know that every unified pill I pop and each time the smoke gathers down my esophagus I exhale the black hate divested into my capillaries through my retinas and I am full of bullshit, plattered and served like caviar from every single adult over the age of 6 or 7.  10 year olds suck too.  Everyone is in aggreement, we carry out this operation like a waltz, the game rules:


Take pills.

Political election.

Clock in drive the car.

Shut up and cook the dinner.

Hold it in.  Hold it in.  Oh just laugh at Snl, hold it in. Oh so funny, side of the road funny, beat him down funny, crawl on fours funny, divided into separate things, funny,


Wtf moth

last night I was trying to fall asleep and pretty proud of myself for not being freaked out as much anymore about things that go bump in the night when I hear this soft patter. Like footsteps on the roof. I don’t assume and just lie there saying it’s the irregular rain and then I keep hearing it like little chunky freaky footsteps. So I get up and turn on the light and its this HUGE moth. I try to catch it in a box and it freaks out and I say “it’s okay moth I’m not going to kill you” and then it disappears in my dresser.

It’s super late so I finally realize I’m going to have to sleep in the room with the moth and it’ll probably crawl on my face, which I dislike. Then I think what if it’s that weird magic guy from down the street who morphed into a moth to antagonize and probably spy on me BECUZ THATS HOW I THINK and that makes me super annoyed

I wake up and it’s still ther and then I get online and some blogger posted about watching the link for silence of the lambs wtf. Not Like. unlike. Wtf

i know my therapist is going to say blah blah nobody can morph their body Stacy and blah blah just the universe and blah don’t be paranoid. I’m NOT paranoid ijs. Screw that moth crawling in.               o face andimage shit

I can’t understand that if
EVERYTHING is some sort of weird hologram inners​ pschye projection of me
why do I feel like You’re​ not holding me

if you’re me.
And how domestic
Like the girl who focuses on the relationship between that true detective guy and the other guys wife instead if focusing on more higher minded things
And write the essay about the meat
And not the sauce.

So if you and him
Who I DO find attractive but again with the trope and the labeling and “oh she wants a relationship” and Stacy the homewrecker again but no I just think smart people who have sultry voices are hot.
So there.

But I’m not falling no no no
I just maybe wanted you to see that I CAN think somebody s hot and not fall into a rabbit hole of redundancy and domesticity but with you
With you
It’s hot
And then
Something more and u know what it is so stop waiting on me to say it

I want to tell you to go fuck yourself so many day but
I jus mumble it softly
Carressingly?? And nobody takes me away.

And this poem was supposed to be about philosophy matters but it turned into you
And I loathe that

See I took the time to scroll up my cheap device and italicise that and that’s how
much I loathe
And Care.

And now my battery is low and I didn’t even get to the part where I pontificate and platforms and you reminded me of my old first boyfriend Lee j who introduced me to Woody Allen and we would sit in his friend Jamie’s driveway at night
After mid preferably and smoke weed and sip Royal and talk about prince and why the revolution and the benefits of old skool like most def or any other and why
do the stars
Tell us we r ok?

So yeah if you’re a projection of me and everything I watch and hear including tropic thunder which I just watched the other day a classic
I suppose
But if I’m a projection of you
Couldn’t we just I mean
If I’m a projection of you and I mean couldn’t we just be
That won’t work it
We’re the ones thatkeep
The gods busy
And wait if it’s all me then
Who’s busy


following me irl and i don’t do creepy stuff like that and now you will read 2 pages of instructions showing you how to wash your hands THE PROPER WAY




Goal: Students shall have access to hand washing or sanitizing before meals and snacks.

The Board of Directors recognizes the health of the student is directly related to personal hygiene

and cleanliness. Students who are present at school on a regular basis benefit from increased

instruction and learning. To support this need, the district has established practices to reduce the

spread of bacteria and viruses, such as the flu, the common cold, Norovirus, and Hepatitis A.

Students shall have access to hand washing or sanitizing before and after meals and snacks.

School staff is directed to implement these procedures whenever students use the restroom and

prior to dining.

Purpose Of Hand Washing

1. To reduce the spread of bacteria and viruses, from person to person and from people to

food contact surfaces which are the main cause of the spread of Norovirus, the common

cold and the flu.

2. To reduce germs and bacteria found on the hands to safe levels, to prevent or to eliminate

the spread of bacteria and viruses, which increase the spread of illness in the cafeteria and


3. To reinforce and practice personal hygiene practices with all students.

4. To provide an opportunity for the class to develop correct hand washing procedures and

then apply the procedures on a regular basis.

Hand Washing Procedures

1. Wash hands using soap and warm, running water, at least 100°F.

2. Vigorously rub hands during washing for at least 15 – 20 seconds (Sing the Happy

Birthday song) with special attention paid to the backs of the hands, wrists, between the

fingers and under the fingernails.

3. Rinse hands well while leaving the water running.

4. With the water running, dry hands with a single-use towel or a warm air dryer.

Hand Washing/Sanitizing AP December 2007


5. Turn off the water using a paper towel, covering washed hands to prevent recontamination

from the dirty faucet.

When To Wash Hands

Hands should be washed after the following activities:

􀂃 After touching bare human body parts other than clean hands and clean, exposed

portions of arms.

􀂃 After using the toilet

􀂃 After coughing, sneezing, using a handkerchief or disposable tissue

􀂃 After eating or drinking

􀂃 After recess

􀂃 After handling dirty equipment, utensils and supplies

􀂃 After engaging in other activities that contaminate the hands

Use Of Hand Sanitizers

1. Hand sanitizers may be used in place of hand washing ONLY when access to soap and

hand sinks are not available.

2. Only hand sanitizers containing 60-90% ethyl alcohol or isopropanol in concentration

with equivalent sanitizing strength may be used as an adjunct to proper hand washing.

3. Note: Researchers say that hand sanitizers may not be effective in removing certain

allergens, including peanut allergens, and may instead spread them around (1).

Role Of The Principal

As the instructional leader, the principal has a continuing role in policy implementation. The

principal should:

1. Communicate the hand washing and hand sanitizer policy to teachers, parents/guardians,

and students.

2. Organize in-service training for all building staff as part of the policy implementation.

3. Ensure the staff complies with the hand washing, sanitizing policy.

4. Coordinate the availability of supplies for hand washing: soap and single use towels, in

bathrooms and classrooms with hand sinks.

5. Evaluate and monitor the implementation of hand washing and hand sanitizing.

Hand Washing/Sanitizing AP December 2007


Role Of The Teacher

It is the classroom teacher’s responsibility to instruct students in a meaningful manner. The

teacher should:

1. Demonstrate and present the steps to hand washing clearly and concisely.

2. Ensure that proper and adequate facilities (i.e., sinks) are available and are in good

working order.

3. Provide time prior to meals and snack for hand washing.

4. Reinforce hand washing by setting the example and washing their hands according to

when to wash hands.

5. Consider assignments that permit the student to demonstrate handwashing


6. Motivate students in when to and how to wash hands.

Role Of The School Nurse

It is the school nurse’s role to support the classroom teacher and principal in instructing teachers

and students. The school nurse should:

1. Provide instructional materials for use in the classroom and restrooms which reinforce

proper hand washing.

2. Assist the principal in instructing teachers on proper hand washing procedures.

3. Assist the classroom teacher in instructing students on proper hand washing procedures.

4. Communicate with the principal, food service manager, and teachers any concerns related

to increases in visits to the nurses’ office, which may be the result of improper

handwashing or a foodborne illness outbreak.

Role Of The Student

The student should:

1. Be familiar with the hand washing and hand sanitizing policy of the school.

2. Become familiar with the proper steps of hand washing and know when to wash hands.

3. Develop good hand washing habits.

Hand Washing/Sanitizing AP December 2007


4. Take personal responsibility for washing hands not only at school but when away from


Role Of The Parents/Guardians

Parents/Guardians can encourage their children by showing interest and displaying positive

examples of hand washing. The school district will copy and distribute to parents/guardians

information designed to promote hand washing and identify roles for parents/guardians in

promoting hand washing. (Examples of materials that can be used and/or modified for this

purpose can be found in the “Resources” section below.)


Principals, teachers, school nurses, and parents/guardians make a significant contribution to

learning personal hygiene practices. Students will increase learning time and practice good hand

washing or sanitizing when time for hand washing before meals and snacks is structured into the

day, and supplies are provided at all hand sinks for hand washing. Therefore, it is essential that

the entire community embrace the practices of proper hand washing and support the child’s

practice through observation and repetition.

The principal will compile data on the number of in-service sessions in which hand-washing

information is provided and the number of teachers/staff in attendance.


Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, An Ounce of Prevention Campaign –

Arming health educators and consumers with information as well as practical and useful tips on

preventing infectious diseases, the Ounce of Prevention campaign was created by the National

Center for Infectious Diseases, Coordinating Center for Infectious Diseases of the Centers for

Disease Control and Prevention in partnership with Reckitt Benckiser, Inc., the makers of

LYSOL® Brand Products. The campaign’s goal is to provide resources about hand washing,

cleaning and disinfection, and other easy-to-follow steps in an effort to develop and maintain

successful hand hygiene and cleaning practices, and is aimed at educating a broad consumer and

professional audience.

Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, Clean Hands Save Liveshttp://

This CDC website provides information about proper hand washing technique and links to other

sources of information related to hand washing.

GloGerm Kit and Children’s Handwashing Video –

The GloGerm kit is designed to demonstrate the importance of hand washing. Downloadable

videos in both English and Spanish also promote proper hand washing.

Hand Washing/Sanitizing AP December 2007


Partnership for Food Safety Education, Fight Bac! –

The Partnership for Food Safety Education unites representatives from industry associations,

professional societies in food science, nutrition and health consumer groups, the United States

Department of Agriculture, the Environmental Protection Agency, the Department of Health and

Human Services, the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, and the Food and Drug

Administration in an important initiative to educate the public about safe food handling practices

needed to keep food safe from bacteria and prevent foodborne illness.

United States Department of Agriculture, Team Nutrition Website, Food Safety: Hand

Washing –


This portion of the Team Nutrition website provides links to resources related to hand washing.


(1) Perry, Tamara T. et al, “Distribution of Peanut Allergen in the Environment,” Journal of

Allergy and Clinical Immunology, May 2004, Vol. 113, No. 5. (Press release can be accessed at:

and you aere and will just remember thatDOESN’T GIVE A FUCK and i will screem in your face for several hours and did you see when i cut you in half with my samauiri sword and then you reformed and i was nice and shrunk you down to my little ponys and just thumped several of you across the room BECAUSE I’M NICE


What’s wrong with Ben2Times :sucked out of space

“Well, what’s wrong then?” Stephania asked Ben2Times as he readjusted the knobs on the milkshake machine, again.

“Nothing. Nothing’s wrong.” he replied and looked in the drawer underneath for a brochure or something.

“But you keep on doing all this weird stuff and not really answering me,” she said as he wouldn’t even look at her.

Finally, Ben2Times stood up from underneath the machine and looked her dead in the eye. “Listen, Stephania, it’s like this…” He grabbed her hand and put it up to his heart. Stephania felt her knees weaken a little and held his gaze.

“When I first met you,” he said, “I never thought there was a chance in hell that you’d give me the time of day. I mean, with you being so beautiful and awesome and I thought that you already had someone and what would you want with a guy like me…”

Stephania felt her eyes start to water and tried not to let it show. Ben2Times kept talking and searching deep in her eyes, “I…and then when… when I knew I actually had a chance I was overjoyed and to be honest a little nervous. And now this… to think that we may be trapped here in the Burger Bop for eternity or somthing like it and I wonder if you really want to be with me. Like, what if I say something to make you made or turns out you really don’t like me at all and now it just feels like I’m talking too much. I’m not being your cool guy…”

Stephania grabbed his other hand and tried to calm down her heartbeat. She didn’t know what to feel. “I like you…” she said, “I like you a lot. Let’s just keep going and see what happens and you don’t have to be a cool guy you dork, I like you the way you are…” she said.

“Yeah, but, here’s the thing,” he continued as he looked deep into her eyes, “I don’t think I want things to keep going the way they are. I want to get to know you more. I…I don’t mind if you sleep next to me all millenia while I just stroke your awesome green hair…and sometimes even… sometimes I feel like the words coming out of my mouth aren’t even my own, like it’s all a dream and I’making this all up, it’s weird and I don’t like that feeling.  But like I said, Stephania, I’m so into you…. and… and  I want to explore every bit of you… slowly.”

“Well that sounds fun..” she giggled.

“You know what I mean,” Ben2Times sighed and looked all serious.

“Don’t be so serious,” she said and slapped him on the arm.

He smiled.

She smiled.

All the letter ‘d’s smiled.


Natalianese frowned.

Sucked out by the vacuum of space A SHORT STORY

Ben2Times eyelids fluttered furiously in his sleep. Stephania perched on the edge of the cot.  They were in the storeroom closet of the Burger Bop.

Ever since they’d gotten back from that Duplicate Planet, Ben’d been nodding off, off and on, throughout the endless night.

It wouldn’t even day anymore.  The letter “d”s had left the building, drifting, floating through the air at a laconic droopy pace and nobody even swatted at them or said goodbye.

When the last one left, he had snapped close his briefcase (how’d he even get that in here, Stephania had thought, but then she thought of the pink flamingo rocker dance and the cage rock fury and thought yeah, well, why not). He’d drifted breezily but curtly by her through the door.  His look of disdain was almost audible so Stephania was sure to slam the door right behind him as he had tried to compress it ever so gently.

“Fucking asshole “D”s…” Stephania mumbled as Ben2Times eyelids fluttered even faster and his paws swiped sleepily in the air.

Since the endless night and the departure of the “d”s, things had taken a turn. Smithann and Fitz had been spending ever-increasing lapses of time in the walk-in freezer and she knew they were up to something in there.  Everybody knew.  Even Natalianese, who could be a lot of things, but unobservant was not one of them, Stephania could tell.  She was watching her.  Close.

All was quiet in the Burger Bop, she could hear the swipe of the soapy towel that Natalianese was using the wipe the door-paneled windows in the lobby.  The whole place was see-thru in the lobby area and they had used this to their advantage before, able to notice if any weird entities were creeping up even though none had ever tried it.  All that time and not a visitor.  Well, except Fitz, and that one little girl that no one will talk about yet, and the bug.  And the meat.

But now the night and Ben2Times spent most of his time sleeping and Natalianese wouldn’t stop washing the windows in the dark.  It was creepy.  You could hear the dead silence of nothing and then the creak or whine of some type of pulley or contraption from the freezer and the hum of its engine kicking in ever so often.  Then the squeaks from the glass as Natalianese made her dumb-ass karate kid circles. Stephania could see her stupid red eyeballs pinpointing down on them when she was suspended and floating, washing from the outside.

Stephania decided to see what she was up to.  She waited until she seemed to not be looking and eased through the door.  Then she crept around and kicked over her wash bucket, but something strange fell out.

It wasn’t water.

Suddenly Natalianese shrieked soundlessly and air-glided toward her lightning fast at a horizontal angle of quickened oatmeal.  Quite impressive, Stephania thought, and mentally saved that move into her repertoire.

“You   don’t   touch   that  bucket   bitch.” Natalianese spat.

“Whoa whoa whoa?  What bucket?” Stephania smiled and looked at her with as much doe eye as she could muster.

“I was just out for a stroll…  oh, you mean this bucket?” She picked up the bucket and tossed it over her shoulder.  It fell quickly toward the polyurethane sidewalk panel but stopped mid-air right before it could crash.

Stephania eyed it floating there, pursed her lips in a half grin and looked back up at Natalianese.

They glared at each other in a deathlock of fury.

“You mean this magic bucket?” Stephania said into Natalianese’s brain.

“I can still talk like this too you green cow.” Natalianese thought back at her.

Neither of their lips moved but their eyes shone into the night, Natalianese with more of a red hue that Stephania noticed was starting to jump vision on the glass and project little red dots everywhere.

“Uh oh.”

“Damn right, you green menace!” Natalianese blared into her brain and Stephania felt her eyes began to wobble as the high-pitched warble reverberated between her ears.  She ripped two tufts of the sidewalk panel up, balled it up in little bits and shoved them in her ears like two earplugs.

That didn’t help.

She had forgotten the old ways.  They had gotten used to using the new organ voices and now this crazy loon was inside of her and she even had the magic bucket.  She had forgotten all about these devices.

She ripped the plugs out of her ears and yanked the bucket from the air.  Some more of the strange substance fell out but Stephania ignored it and slammed the bucket down over Natalianese’s big stupid head.

She withdrew her pointing stick and unsheathed it from its ultra sound-absorbent scabbard.

“Aaaayyyyyyyyeeeeeeeee!” she screeched and reigned down a series of furious thumps on top of the bucket covering Natalianese’s head.

With each thump Natalianese kinda sunk down through the polyurethane ground board until finally she was drilled waist deep.  The shrilling stopped echoing in Stephania’s head and was replaced by a sad sad sobbing.

“Wha?  Wait, stop that.  Stop that crying.” Stephania said and Natalianese whimpered even more sadly in her head.

“C’mon, it’s not that serious.  I was just… I was just trying to get you to stop.  You know how we are, I… uh…”

“Don’t worry about it,” Natalianese said and used the soppy towel to wipe the front of the bucket. “It doesn’t even matter anymore.  Just help me with my feet, it tickles.”

“Okay.” Stephania said and punched a hole through the sidewalk panel next to the Natalianese-shaped screw hole.

She punched again until the hole was wide enough to peek her head in and peer down there.

“Oh.  Hey guys. Sorry about that,” she said. “Didn’t know you were next to us down there… it’s complicated…”

“Just fix it.  Fix it now.” One of the blue creatures wrote on a card and held up to her head so she could read it.

Stephania figured these were the guys she had heard of before, but she thought they were located on the other side of town, through a sky ceiling at least, not the sidewalk.

It was magnificent down there.  Brilliantly blue with shimmering hints of pink, orange… any color you could think of really.

And the things looked like furry seahorses but with huge wide soccer ball eyes perched on long tendrils sticking out from their shoulder pockets.

They would have been scary, with the huge eyes and no mouths and all except for the funny looking cards that they wrote on with big sparkly glitter pencils.  Everywhere stickers.  Bright neon colors and dancing, happy stickers and bright pencils with fuzzy things attached and sparkly streamers.

The creatures bumped about and greeted with tails but Stephania noticed a few of the placards floating in the air had really, really disturbing messages.  She looked around at the huge eyeballs of some of them and wondered which ones had written them.  Sad, sad disjointed writing with glitter mounded on top but the stickers were awesome, very bright.

“Well how do I fix it?” Stephania asked one of them who happened to be floating by.

“You don’t,” it wrote and pulled out a small vial filled with red, blue, and green confetti and tossed the contents into its eyes.

It sighed and stared at her with most of its whites now sparkling and twinkling in the night.

“You just throw a bunch of this shit on it.” it wrote, and tossed her a bottle.