i may move

i’m thinking i may move to a new site/plateform whatever. i’ve been writing to myself but i want to publish again for whatever twisted reason. i may move. but idk. bc it seems like it would take up a lot of time to set it all up. i think i used to feel more free to write here like no one was listen but then people started liking me an i got weird about it. not super weird but weird enough like even just writing htis i had the thought like this is dumb and who would want to read my stupid thoughts and i should format and talk about deep trump. what is that?

i would just talk about my mom her and how she pissed me off and say a bunch of curse words and maybe rap and sometimes poetry


i’m not sure if i finished yet.



people try to like to read me

It’s weird how you post something on instagrm or facebook (if you’re old) or whatever and people like to think it’s about them all the time.  Then  everybody (my mom) says since i’m a white girl I can’t say certain things or post IMAGES of people like something’s wrong with me,  there’s nothing wrong with me there’s something wrong with everybody.  When I write my stories it’s not about anybody for certain and she’s never going t o get to read them anyway because she can’t read my blog,  Which is why I don’t go on facebook in the first place.

I don’t  know why I’m saying this here but I can’t say it on my social since everybody I know irl reads it.  OMG creepy.  A picture just fell off the wall, again.  I should write all the creepy stuff here.  No one believes me anyway and if I said it irl they say im being weird again  or making stuff up.

Have you ever gone into your house and when you went back in things were in the wrong place?  But just slightly?  Right now I hear a strange deep vibrating alien noise coming from outside like in that Tom Cruise movie where the aliens invade and the water in the glass vibrates like in Jurassic Park.  It’s that sound like the huge spider alien thing or gigantic pod is thrumming a deep note into the earth.  Everybody walks outside or peeps their head out and sees it and almost pees.  You get that sweet knot in your stomach like a sweet sweet pain and kinda sexual, like you know you’re about to die but a pleasure. Anyway you see the alien monster huge and looming in the sky distance and distance is good, but you know it’s coming bc it’s big.  What would you do> I hear that noise outside.  It might just be someone’s car radio though.

But when I cam e back inside and a little dinosaur toy I had set up next to the indian and army man (I don’t play with toys I just like to arrange my sisters sometimes) it was set up in a different position. I asked her if she did it and she said no.  Then someone turned the heat on full blast and also the curtains skeep falling down.  I know this all sounds regular.  Idk how to make it sound like it really is. there’s other things.

One day I woke up and a woman was sitting in the second living room, down by the stairs to the door to the cellar.  We call it the second living room but it’s really just a nook off the kitchen sort of.  She was old and haggard looking and sitting there ike with some sort of crochet thing and looking down.  It fucked me up at first because it was like 11pm and I was walking down the stairs to get a pop and she was there with the little lamp on with her dirty socks up on the ottoman,  She looked super nice and friendly and smiling and her face a little damp tho like she had been running.  I thought maybe she was one of my moms old lady friends.nI jumped and then said oh hi and looked around,  she said oh hi and put whatever she had in her hands into her purse and then I couldn’t see it.  She had on a orange and rose colored sweater with a long skirt except you could see her ankles and socks.  I walked past her expecting to see my mom in the kitchen or wherever but when I walked past she burped real loudly and it was gross, gurgly.  I looked at her and she just smiled and then started scratching her head a lot and under her boob some.  I kept walking and when i got out the kitchen she wasn’t there and the lamp was still on.  The couch had a little wet spot and when i went upstairs my mom was still asleep.  Her dumb boyfriend was there too.

I didn’t tell my mom bc she would just say i was having a nightmare again.  whatever.

A theme?

I never thought of that. Someone told me yesterday I could have a theme for characters in short stories.

I have to think about theme of Sucked out by a vacuum

is there a theme already? IDk



Wtf moth

last night I was trying to fall asleep and pretty proud of myself for not being freaked out as much anymore about things that go bump in the night when I hear this soft patter. Like footsteps on the roof. I don’t assume and just lie there saying it’s the irregular rain and then I keep hearing it like little chunky freaky footsteps. So I get up and turn on the light and its this HUGE moth. I try to catch it in a box and it freaks out and I say “it’s okay moth I’m not going to kill you” and then it disappears in my dresser.

It’s super late so I finally realize I’m going to have to sleep in the room with the moth and it’ll probably crawl on my face, which I dislike. Then I think what if it’s that weird magic guy from down the street who morphed into a moth to antagonize and probably spy on me BECUZ THATS HOW I THINK and that makes me super annoyed

I wake up and it’s still ther and then I get online and some blogger posted about watching the link for silence of the lambs wtf. Not Like. unlike. Wtf

i know my therapist is going to say blah blah nobody can morph their body Stacy and blah blah just the universe and blah don’t be paranoid. I’m NOT paranoid ijs. Screw that moth crawling in.               o face andimage shit


And now I’m pushing it

One more thing:

U th


I can’t understand that if
EVERYTHING is some sort of weird hologram inners​ pschye projection of me
why do I feel like You’re​ not holding me

if you’re me.
And how domestic
Like the girl who focuses on the relationship between that true detective guy and the other guys wife instead if focusing on more higher minded things
And write the essay about the meat
And not the sauce.

So if you and him
Who I DO find attractive but again with the trope and the labeling and “oh she wants a relationship” and Stacy the homewrecker again but no I just think smart people who have sultry voices are hot.
So there.

But I’m not falling no no no
I just maybe wanted you to see that I CAN think somebody s hot and not fall into a rabbit hole of redundancy and domesticity but with you
With you
It’s hot
And then
Something more and u know what it is so stop waiting on me to say it

I want to tell you to go fuck yourself so many day but
I jus mumble it softly
Carressingly?? And nobody takes me away.

And this poem was supposed to be about philosophy matters but it turned into you
And I loathe that

See I took the time to scroll up my cheap device and italicise that and that’s how
much I loathe
And Care.

And now my battery is low and I didn’t even get to the part where I pontificate and platforms and you reminded me of my old first boyfriend Lee j who introduced me to Woody Allen and we would sit in his friend Jamie’s driveway at night
After mid preferably and smoke weed and sip Royal and talk about prince and why the revolution and the benefits of old skool like most def or any other and why
do the stars
Tell us we r ok?

So yeah if you’re a projection of me and everything I watch and hear including tropic thunder which I just watched the other day a classic
I suppose
But if I’m a projection of you
Couldn’t we just I mean
If I’m a projection of you and I mean couldn’t we just be
That won’t work it
We’re the ones thatkeep
The gods busy
And wait if it’s all me then
Who’s busy



To the guy in the hallway who looked at me funny

First of all, I died my hair bc my friend happened to be dying hers and I wanted to to. Not because I was trying to look cool or different or whatever.  It just happened like that. I know I still have to fix the part she fucked up. Thanks for making me feel great about it


Not the right thing to say

It’s a dumb stupid feeling to get the ‘buck up kid, you’ll find love when u least expect it’ from the person who knows that you like. What a dumbass thing to say. Just don’t say anything. And now I can’t get it out my head, seriously dumb


following me irl and i don’t do creepy stuff like that and now you will read 2 pages of instructions showing you how to wash your hands THE PROPER WAY




Goal: Students shall have access to hand washing or sanitizing before meals and snacks.

The Board of Directors recognizes the health of the student is directly related to personal hygiene

and cleanliness. Students who are present at school on a regular basis benefit from increased

instruction and learning. To support this need, the district has established practices to reduce the

spread of bacteria and viruses, such as the flu, the common cold, Norovirus, and Hepatitis A.

Students shall have access to hand washing or sanitizing before and after meals and snacks.

School staff is directed to implement these procedures whenever students use the restroom and

prior to dining.

Purpose Of Hand Washing

1. To reduce the spread of bacteria and viruses, from person to person and from people to

food contact surfaces which are the main cause of the spread of Norovirus, the common

cold and the flu.

2. To reduce germs and bacteria found on the hands to safe levels, to prevent or to eliminate

the spread of bacteria and viruses, which increase the spread of illness in the cafeteria and


3. To reinforce and practice personal hygiene practices with all students.

4. To provide an opportunity for the class to develop correct hand washing procedures and

then apply the procedures on a regular basis.

Hand Washing Procedures

1. Wash hands using soap and warm, running water, at least 100°F.

2. Vigorously rub hands during washing for at least 15 – 20 seconds (Sing the Happy

Birthday song) with special attention paid to the backs of the hands, wrists, between the

fingers and under the fingernails.

3. Rinse hands well while leaving the water running.

4. With the water running, dry hands with a single-use towel or a warm air dryer.

Hand Washing/Sanitizing AP December 2007


5. Turn off the water using a paper towel, covering washed hands to prevent recontamination

from the dirty faucet.

When To Wash Hands

Hands should be washed after the following activities:

􀂃 After touching bare human body parts other than clean hands and clean, exposed

portions of arms.

􀂃 After using the toilet

􀂃 After coughing, sneezing, using a handkerchief or disposable tissue

􀂃 After eating or drinking

􀂃 After recess

􀂃 After handling dirty equipment, utensils and supplies

􀂃 After engaging in other activities that contaminate the hands

Use Of Hand Sanitizers

1. Hand sanitizers may be used in place of hand washing ONLY when access to soap and

hand sinks are not available.

2. Only hand sanitizers containing 60-90% ethyl alcohol or isopropanol in concentration

with equivalent sanitizing strength may be used as an adjunct to proper hand washing.

3. Note: Researchers say that hand sanitizers may not be effective in removing certain

allergens, including peanut allergens, and may instead spread them around (1).

Role Of The Principal

As the instructional leader, the principal has a continuing role in policy implementation. The

principal should:

1. Communicate the hand washing and hand sanitizer policy to teachers, parents/guardians,

and students.

2. Organize in-service training for all building staff as part of the policy implementation.

3. Ensure the staff complies with the hand washing, sanitizing policy.

4. Coordinate the availability of supplies for hand washing: soap and single use towels, in

bathrooms and classrooms with hand sinks.

5. Evaluate and monitor the implementation of hand washing and hand sanitizing.

Hand Washing/Sanitizing AP December 2007


Role Of The Teacher

It is the classroom teacher’s responsibility to instruct students in a meaningful manner. The

teacher should:

1. Demonstrate and present the steps to hand washing clearly and concisely.

2. Ensure that proper and adequate facilities (i.e., sinks) are available and are in good

working order.

3. Provide time prior to meals and snack for hand washing.

4. Reinforce hand washing by setting the example and washing their hands according to

when to wash hands.

5. Consider assignments that permit the student to demonstrate handwashing


6. Motivate students in when to and how to wash hands.

Role Of The School Nurse

It is the school nurse’s role to support the classroom teacher and principal in instructing teachers

and students. The school nurse should:

1. Provide instructional materials for use in the classroom and restrooms which reinforce

proper hand washing.

2. Assist the principal in instructing teachers on proper hand washing procedures.

3. Assist the classroom teacher in instructing students on proper hand washing procedures.

4. Communicate with the principal, food service manager, and teachers any concerns related

to increases in visits to the nurses’ office, which may be the result of improper

handwashing or a foodborne illness outbreak.

Role Of The Student

The student should:

1. Be familiar with the hand washing and hand sanitizing policy of the school.

2. Become familiar with the proper steps of hand washing and know when to wash hands.

3. Develop good hand washing habits.

Hand Washing/Sanitizing AP December 2007


4. Take personal responsibility for washing hands not only at school but when away from


Role Of The Parents/Guardians

Parents/Guardians can encourage their children by showing interest and displaying positive

examples of hand washing. The school district will copy and distribute to parents/guardians

information designed to promote hand washing and identify roles for parents/guardians in

promoting hand washing. (Examples of materials that can be used and/or modified for this

purpose can be found in the “Resources” section below.)


Principals, teachers, school nurses, and parents/guardians make a significant contribution to

learning personal hygiene practices. Students will increase learning time and practice good hand

washing or sanitizing when time for hand washing before meals and snacks is structured into the

day, and supplies are provided at all hand sinks for hand washing. Therefore, it is essential that

the entire community embrace the practices of proper hand washing and support the child’s

practice through observation and repetition.

The principal will compile data on the number of in-service sessions in which hand-washing

information is provided and the number of teachers/staff in attendance.


Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, An Ounce of Prevention Campaign –


Arming health educators and consumers with information as well as practical and useful tips on

preventing infectious diseases, the Ounce of Prevention campaign was created by the National

Center for Infectious Diseases, Coordinating Center for Infectious Diseases of the Centers for

Disease Control and Prevention in partnership with Reckitt Benckiser, Inc., the makers of

LYSOL® Brand Products. The campaign’s goal is to provide resources about hand washing,

cleaning and disinfection, and other easy-to-follow steps in an effort to develop and maintain

successful hand hygiene and cleaning practices, and is aimed at educating a broad consumer and

professional audience.

Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, Clean Hands Save Liveshttp://


This CDC website provides information about proper hand washing technique and links to other

sources of information related to hand washing.

GloGerm Kit and Children’s Handwashing Video – http://www.glogerm.com/

The GloGerm kit is designed to demonstrate the importance of hand washing. Downloadable

videos in both English and Spanish also promote proper hand washing.

Hand Washing/Sanitizing AP December 2007


Partnership for Food Safety Education, Fight Bac! – http://www.fightbac.org/

The Partnership for Food Safety Education unites representatives from industry associations,

professional societies in food science, nutrition and health consumer groups, the United States

Department of Agriculture, the Environmental Protection Agency, the Department of Health and

Human Services, the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, and the Food and Drug

Administration in an important initiative to educate the public about safe food handling practices

needed to keep food safe from bacteria and prevent foodborne illness.

United States Department of Agriculture, Team Nutrition Website, Food Safety: Hand

Washing –



This portion of the Team Nutrition website provides links to resources related to hand washing.


(1) Perry, Tamara T. et al, “Distribution of Peanut Allergen in the Environment,” Journal of

Allergy and Clinical Immunology, May 2004, Vol. 113, No. 5. (Press release can be accessed at:


and you aere and will just remember thatDOESN’T GIVE A FUCK and i will screem in your face for several hours and did you see when i cut you in half with my samauiri sword and then you reformed and i was nice and shrunk you down to my little ponys and just thumped several of you across the room BECAUSE I’M NICE



hey you asked me and I gave it to you

For the asshole who posted that rude comment which I deleted from MY account— I actually FOUND the msgs under casual encounters on craigslist and no I AM NOT A CHILD so I can.  And my freind Megan told me to go there and find cool stuff to read thank you very much.  And don’t be so uptight all the time, it’s