I am so fucking angry I’m trying to look at the bright side glass half full and all that but if I have to spend one more cafeteria lunch with my classmates I’m going to fucking start picking up bottles and breaking shit. I have to sit for an hour with these fuxking twatty ass imbeciles and I am angry the teacher says I cannot skip lunch my therapist days to social and laugh and talk and be grateful see food and myself in them and I want to steNgle misled into the wall. And don’t fucking ask me what time it is go fuck your self and feel shitty cuz your a bad lay you fuxking dumb bitch. And stop looking at me. And acting nice. Your not nice. I can see your thoughts


fucking kill me now jump please jump


So stupid

my teacher said the people who graffiti are just a bunch of asshokes who wanted to leave their mark.


Its funny because that’s what the artist was doing anyway ha

Don’t mess with white women…

“That’s when you cross the line…..

I’m just sayin… ”

–Amber (on trump)bwaaahahaaaahaha


I just learned more about cows on wiki



“One can measure the greatness of a nation and its moral progress by the way it treats its animals. Cow protection to me is not mere protection of the cow. It means protection of all that lives and is helpless and weak in the world. The cow means the entire subhuman world.” Mahatma Gandhi





It was all downhill after she pulled out the paint

(Later on my little sister said, “I thought downhill was easy …you roll. lolol)  I started program called Running Start where I get to go to the college and take classes to get me ready.  It is not so bad.  Today a lady from LIQUItex came in to talk to us about paints and paint mixing and putting the paint with the gels and taking the paint off the thing and acrilic verses spray paint and a lot of other things.  FOR TWO AND ONE HALF HOURS.  She talked.

About paint.


I will ruin you. Oh fuck u fuck u liquitex. The first creative writing I wrote about it from my notes (since OUR TEACHER said we had to take notes and be intrested for more credit in the class)


“We take everything”



make it pee.

That is how you make indian yellow.








They appreciate it more

so not to mute

further from intense



Clear gesso

Black gesso

They gotta white gesso

Gray gesso

all the gessos you need


She has practical red lips.  Not too red.  An apron.  She looks like she curled her hair in three big curls in the front with a curling iron and didn’t come them out.  Brown and flat.  The teacher gave me a mini spray can of cadmium yellow.  It is full of lead they said.  Don’t get it on your hands its really bad to have lead and if you have some from twenty years ago it never goes out of your system just builds up so don’t be artsy with cadmium yellow.  The can is small like a mace and I said to my friend I would use it on any attacker. Oooooohhhhh I’m gonna give you cancer.  Eventually.  Well officer, he’s yellow.  Thats who.




One time she accidently said Lubritex and nobody noticed.  There were so many gels and medium and heavy high quality, but my aunt said all really need is vaseline for wet and shiny or old mascara to mute it.




“Excuse me while I shift into a different hue”


“color shifting”

Spray paint with acrilic

she wouldn’t answer if it worked on brick

or concrete. It is almost crack resistant


Afganastan aquamarine

we make all the afganastan ultra marines go home and google outside.



Please stop interacting with my light.



I told the girl sitting next to me that they spray painted they’re hands on the wall at the end of blair witch and she ignored me as usual.  After about an hour somebody asked how much the spray cans were and I really wanted to know too.  She said she wasn’t sure and not that good with prices, she would find out at the end.  She fucking knows.  She KNOWS.  Her apron says LIQUITEX.  What game is this?


I thought about stealing some spray cans.  But I didn’t.  I stopped doing that. I can’t sleep if I do.  We had to stay till the end.  I really wanted to finish my new photoshop tutorial, it was getting fun.  And now I found out that we have to do the art all period indoors, with a group, no photoshop, during daytime.  Perfect. I like to draw outside, alone, at night.  Oh well.  At least I’m running start.



A savory color